Cruel Joke...
 
A friend played a cruel joke on me. I did fall for it for a few mins, and felt so scared..but then got over it...but still cruel jokes suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And then on the brighter note....I have finalized two of my interviews, just need to send in my itineraries to the schools so that they can reimburse me for the travel and food or whatever money. It should be a lot of fun.

COLD day!
 
Ayee, Minnesota is back to what I knew it was like many many years ago. Back in 1996 or was it 1997, we used to get cold cold cold windchills as the ones we have today. THOUGH, back then our windchills peaked at -70 degrees Fahrenheit, though today I heard during the day they should be a -16, but during the nights at -40...not cold enough as it was before. Ayee, back then I was a lil tinky high school student...Times have changed...mmmmmmmm...I wonder if I have changed? hmmmmmmmmmmmm

On a more boring note..I'm on campus EARLY in the morning. Yah, more like 8 a.m. Doing what...yes, I'm doing research. I'm doing it so early, that my eyes are actually hurting from not getting enough sleep. But some things need to get done I suppose. K...I'm rattlin...so I'm out...

Too many names..
 
I'm not stuck up. But I try never to forget people once I meet them. I still know friends of mine since I was 8 years old, and I keep in touch with them regularly. I even know the names of people in my sister and brothers' class from way back when. Yah, maybe I'm weird, but once I see a face and a name..they are glued in my head and I'll never forget.

So now that I'm a teaching assistant for microbiology, though I have taught a semester of Biology 100 (wopee) too. I started teaching in fall 2002, and by now I have gone through around 200 students excluding this semester..but including this semester I'm sitting at 250 students. It's odd how I got to know all these students and I made it a point to memorize their names, their majors and their interests. But it's weird how I remembered their names one semester and then forget them the next semester, or now. So now I see these previous students of mine on campus and they are like "Mansoora do you remember me?", I see the familiar face so it's a "yes"..but then my mind gets pissed at itself for not remembering their names...my whole day then goes into remembering their names! I suppose I should just stick to memorizing my friends...heh heh..

Oh it just sounds so good...
 
On my trip to Pakistan this year, or well two weeks ago it ended--I had my cousins go out and get me some CD of singers from Pakistan. Mmm...the Cd's they got me were great. I listen to them all the time. And the more the singer sings in Punjabi, the better. For those who dont' know, I come from the province of Punjab in Pakistan. In punjab, one of the languages spoken is punjabi. I find it to be a beautiful language; it just sounds soo good!! I mean I can understand it mostly, speak it a bit, but love it overall. So listening to these songs just feels and sounds sooo good! I guess it's something twangy in the way they sing that just sounds great....Oh I've been writing a lot on here...I'm out to get stuff done now I guess...like study for my biochemistry test which is on friday :((((((((

waiting..
I'm waiting for quite a few things. Like a few letters from universities that have not told me if I have an interview with them. But these other universities said they'd let me know by mid feb or early march, so I shouldn't freak out about them yet. Oh...I did get yet another interview to Univ. of Iowa...mmm, I like the research there, but I'm not too fond of IOWA..though I said that the other day and one of the Graduate students who is from Iowa heard it...oops, I was trying to fix up the situation then...heh heh heh...

oh..back to other things I'm waiting for....well one thing for sure...which is a stupid Coat I ordered from Victoria's Secrets..it's a lovely coat. I sound so materialistic being stuck on it..but I just want that coat..I have been wanting to get it since the end of november...I had ordered it back then, but it's shipping date had coincided with me not being here in the states as my family was going to pakistan...so I had to cancel the order. Now when I came back I ordered it again..only they said I'd get it by the 28th..so more wait :(((( Mmmm....when I order, I want it soon..not LATE....

Other things to wait for...well if I order this one..I wanna get a laptop..I have it configured..my brother did it..just can't get the guts to just order it. I keep wondering if I should get it now, or later..as in before I leave for a doctoral program this coming summer..mmmmmm...not sure! maybe I'll get it now.....yah I'll change my mind back in 5 mins..I can't decide!

Anti-Social days..
 
I get too much on my mind and I become too absorbed with things that I don't notice others around me, and I become critical and bitter. Gosh! I'm feeling like that these days. heh..AT times I walk around on campus and walk past friends, and though they say HI I don't notice..till they either yell my name..or tell me later on that I ignored me...it's more like I"m walking around..but my mind is off somewhere else..yes right now my mind is on my thesis...

Also...today in one of my classes, the teacher said we HAD to ask a question in class since a presentor was presenting his research. Acck just hearing that made me all weak and nervous! I mean, it's weird I teach 4 times a week, and end up giving a 45 min lecture per day, but that NEVER makes me nervous, but this DId!!!! It was weird! Well I did write a question to ask, but we ran outta time in our class and I was saved by the bell....thank GOD! aaaaah....it was great...

I guess when I teach I'm not nervous because I teach what i know..but in asking that question today..I was asking on something I had just heard..I'm a weanie who was afraid I'd ask something stupid..hahaha..dumb....

Slug
 
Slug--a word my high school history teacher loved to use. I suppose I'm starting to understand the meaning of it now. He would say it to students who were lazy and didn't do much. Mmmm..I feel that way for the past few days..maybe I'm getting my schedule back to normal from my one month hiatus in a different country. Or maybe I just don't want to be in school anymorel. Acck though! I have to be writing my thesis and I can't imagine doing it anymore....On top of it I have to still study for a biochem II class :(

Anger Management...hmmm...just a thought..
 
Just something I NOTICED. Haha, finally something I "noticed" to add to this msg board. While usually what I add is my normal day stuff..oops. Anyway, back to the subject about something I noticed. It's about anger. I suppose I shouldn't even toot a horn and talk about this subject as I have my own times of getting pretty mad, but what I may explain is for sure something I would NEVER do! I find it outrageous and stupid actually, but I'll tell about it anyways.

So here goes. I've seen it many times, and it just amazes me that when people get mad they take their anger out on an object near them. I mean they might throw something across the room, or they might break something, better yet, they might slam things shut. It amazes me I guess, cause I really don't see what people get out of it. Some say, oh it takes my anger away..and well fine it does, but dammit it sounds so uncivilized! I think there are much better ways to control ones anger rather than slamming things or breaking things. For the most part, when I see someone get outta control with anger, I seriously think they do it as a show to show others. I only wish that person with the anger was the audience and could see how stupid he/she looks when they are mad...ewwwwwwwwweeeeeeeee!

Mmm..won't write anymore..I think I wrote enough...I'm out and about, and back to writing my thesis...

Just when you thought it was over...
 
So I'm back, and thank goodness that I am not sick as I was the last time I came back from Pakistan! But since I didn't get much of any stomach illness, I suppose my immune department had to do something to annoy me. So heck with it, I did have a cold twice this time in Pakistan. and just when I thought it was over, I come back and I start coughing and have a sore throat. I took some pain killers to make the throat ache go away and it did. Mmm....I think I got happy too soon, since two days after that third stupid cold like whatever went away, I have now contracted something else..yes yes Cold #4!! this one sucks..as some stupid muscle or something is inflamed in my mouth..down to my throat and it hurts!!! Yes, I'm on more pain killers..to get over it! I called the nurses hotline and they said that I indeed have contracted yet another viral infection and that I should just wait another two weeks (max) to get over it..wopee..JUST what I needed....I almost want to say I wish I'd rather be puking...but I won't..cause those suck just as much..if not more! K..I rattled enough..

On a brighter note...nah I mean dimmer note cause this ain't any brighter.....I'm working on my thesis these days....a very tedious and boring process I must admit. I have to read too much and written very little....Just wish I finish this thinger and graduate soon enough.......

Back from P-Land!
 
Hello to All!!yes I am back from Pakistan!! I arrived late last night around 8ish! Mmm...I had ignored quite a lot of stuff in Pakistan, including checking my e-mail, mainly becuase I did not want to be reminded of stuff about school or pertaining to it. So today I did the the duty of checking and getting things up to date. I am happy happyhappy...as all my work paid OFF!!!! My grades last semester were wonderful! I got all A's in all four of my classes. These classes were probably the hardest ones I ever took, and also very important for my area of interest!Also, doctoral programs have started to love me as they have been e-mailing me left and right, letting me know that I'm a higly good candidate for their programs! I already have had one request for an all paid interview! I'm soo happy!!!!!!!!

My trip in Pakistan was amazingly the best! Words could never describe how enjoyable it was! I loved it a lot, and loved having a long break away from school!!!!! I would describe the vacation, but I don't think I'd ever stop writing then!!! mmm..it was great!

well that's all..and I'm out!